Category Archive: Grief- The longest journey

Sep 12 2012

The Imprints in my mind.

The two-year anniversary of “that week” in October is coming up.  I don’t have it marked on my calendar.  Believe me, I’d rather forget that any of it happened.  I don’t search out the memory; after all, there’s no point in dwelling.  Yet the slow changing of the foliage, the hints of red and gold, …

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Jul 12 2012

What is Heaven?

I dreamed I was in heaven last night; the real heaven. I was in the presence of John Ritter and Kurt Cobain. That’s what a strawberry jelly filled donut will do to you before you go to bed.   I have no idea why I would have dreamed of the two of them. When Kurt …

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Jun 30 2012

Grief Journey Continued…. The months that followed

The weeks and months that followed the death of my friend and then my father was spent in as much solitude as I could find. I craved it. My desire to be alone was not out of any sort of depression which would have been absolutely normal for anyone to experience. Of course I was …

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Jun 22 2012

Grief Journey Continued and My Father

Grief Continued. It’s Friday night and that’s when this subject seems to get interest. So here’s the next part. I hope continuing this is really helpful to you and me. I’ve talked about my brother and a few friends I’ve lost along the way. Now for the toughest one. It’s no big secret. It just …

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Jun 16 2012

Looking for comfort. Grief continued.

I have to keep going with this because I said I would. I imagine that someone somewhere is experiencing this right now; my imaginary Internet life journey traveling companions. I looked for sites like these late at night, night after night. Back then I had trouble keying in the right combination of words to describe what …

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Jun 12 2012

Grief and an intro to the stupid things people say.

Reader Beware: Another one for the grievers. If you just woke up and are feeling in a bright and sunny mood. Don’t read this and don’t complain about it. I’m writing this in the evening as I promised  and I warned you. I wrote the other night about how I started my grief journey and …

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Jun 11 2012

This Is How It All Started- The Grief Journey.

Reader beware, this one’s for the grievers. This is how it all started. This is how I started my Googling Through Grief. The action and the story of it all. I had a previous post entitled, Googling Through Grief. The title of it was not meant to make light of the intense, mountainous, seemingly endless …

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Jun 11 2012

If you weren’t down in the dumps, you will be now!

It didn’t work. My earlier post did not just show up in the grief category. It’s sitting right under me as a new post. How am I suppose to work with that. I’m not trying to be whiny or focus on sad things. I just know it’s something some people wanted to talk about. I’ve got …

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Jun 10 2012

Why doesn’t anyone want to talk about it?

A long time ago while my older children were still young, I had planned for and gotten pregnant with my 3rd child. Weeks later, I miscarried. No one talked about it. A year later, I got pregnant again. This time I had a tubal pregnancy. Because of the miscarriage the doctor had me go to …

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Jun 10 2012

From here on in, this is how it will go down…

I don’t want to sensor myself. Yet I find myself doing just that. I know some people who stumble upon this blog just want a bit of a lift. There is a part of me who sees life with humour and I have lots of great outlooks to share. I generally have a good disposition …

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May 17 2012

A Fresh New Beginning !

The siding on the house had dulled somewhat. Once clean and white, it was covered in the dust and grit of yesterday and the week before and the year before that. The house had never looked so lonely and bare.  For some reason the flowers that lined the house hadn’t bloomed well the year before. The Evening …

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May 06 2012

I’ll send a wish.

It’s early Sunday morning. The sunlight is streaming in the back patio door. I am listening to the song Aqueous Transmission by Incubus. I pulled it up from YouTube. I sway back and forth as I blog. I can barely type, my fingers are caught up in the melody. I can’t help it but get up and …

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Apr 23 2012

Googling Through Grief

Right clicks feel like an access to all of the answers to all of the questions ever asked in the history of mankind.  It is much like holding your finger out as a child pretending it is a wand and shouting abracadabra to make something appear. In this modern day, you conjure up in your …

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